Bittersweet Life...

Thursday, July 28, 2005

todae was really tiring.. did marshall/usherin duties for the graduation day this morn and this evening... saw azhar. lookin cute azhar in tt baju melayu... haha.. congrats ya, on ur grad... had lots of eye candy durin my duties...

wenta ssp meetin in between my duties... basically juz lepak-ed ard... had laughters here and there...

went home after my evening shift... met up with ema at bugis. we lepak-ed at mrt stn platforms... haha... had fun honey... really appreciate those times... muackz!

i really wanna sleep now.. but i juz cant. i dunno wat or why... sth's botherin me.. but i cant figure out wat.. or who... or why...

i finally had a very short chat with adrena juz now.. i really miss tt lil girl... i mean, i really dun mind listenin to her whine over the phone.. or over the net... i really miss u babe...

im confused. im lost.

am i stressed? i dunno... i've yet to cramp for the MSTs.. i've yet to start real work for my CI-ship... but, i seem to lose control of almost everything. i had everything in place a few weeks ago.. but suddenly, stuff juz get thrown at me... and i have to get it done... by hook or by crook.. i noe it's my respondsibilty, but hey... slow down... im onli yr 1. i have no idea how exams or tests run or are being calculated... i dunno how easy or tough it is to score on tests... thank god there's ssp for me to distress myself...

i miss talkin to him.. but it has to stay this way.. coz i dun want the way it used to be...

i think im really lost. i mean... i need someone. someone who really will listen to me. someone who loves to crap over the phone. someone who is willin to console me when im done in the early hrs of the morn, like wat ema usually do... i appreciated wat u did babe... i miss talkin to u in the middle of the nite... it's not like i dun have gfs.. there's lala, zee, nyqa, su, liyana, the ssp peeps, the mls peeps... ok.. i dunno wat's my pt..

im juz lost.

im totally disorientated. im not doin the things tt im supposed to do.

studies come first nurul... bear tt in mind.. thanks farz for listenin me out for a while juz now...

everyone's bz now... everyone's goin their separated ways...

life's really short...
death. studies. cramp-study sessions. commitments. social life. problems.

go figure wat's tt supposed to mean...

wat's stress anyway? i mean.. how do u feel when u're stress? how do u noe if u're stressed? or izzit juz a word? same goes to love.... wat izzit anyway? i guess it's really hard to defined... im soo crappin now.. but wateva. u dun like this, leave.

i wanna sleep... but i dunno wat's botherin me...

it's amazin tt im still alive.hah.

Smashed into pieces at 7/28/2005 12:25:00 AM